I hate how my life just keeps moving at such a fast pace and doesn't allow me the time to sit down, relax, and enjoy just one small second of peace and quiet. I guess having a family, a job, and other responsibilities will do that to you though. It sucks, because what I really want is a career that pays me a hefty sum of money to do what I love to do: sit down in peace and quiet with a pot of coffee and plenty of time to write about anything that I want to say.
Unfortunately, I don't have that luxury (and if you do, then I'm jealous). What I do have though is the luxury of a loving family, a decent job that pays me and allows me to have a house fully furnished with food and clothing, and a bevy of friends that I can count on for anything I could ever need. I don't struggle to pay my bills, I don't go hungry, I don't freeze in the winter or roast in the summer, yet all I can seem to do is complain.
Dammit why can't I just have fifteen minutes of peace?!?
Will someone please turn that off?!?
Leave your sister alone! That's hers, give it back!
Those are just a few of the quotables that I give off on any particular day. Sometimes, they're much harsher. Sometimes, I tend to say things that I don't mean to say, and after I've said them I regret it, but there's nothing that can be done about it because the words have already been spoken. One thing in this world that can never be taken back is a spoken word, so we have to make sure that the ones we do speak are worth keeping out there forever.
I know it seems like I'm doing nothing but rambling on and on about nonsensical crap, but that's what I do best. It's the ramblings that go on inside my brain day in and day out that keep me sane, and unfortunately I don't have enough time in my life to sit down and share them with the world, because if I did I would (I promise).
Ok, I'll be completely honest. I guess if I really wanted to I could make time to share my thoughts with the world. After all, who needs sleep, right? Well, I do actually. And, you do too (whether you want to admit it or not).
But anyway, back to the point. I hate that my life is moving along at the speed of light and there's nothing that I can do to stop it. No matter how hard I try to avoid it, I'm going to get older, my kids are going to grow up (God help me when they do), and life will go on. I do hate that I don't have the luxury of being able to just take a break from life and the sorrows and struggles that go along with it, but at the same time I believe that if I were given the opportunity I wouldn't know what to do when I had the chance.
You know the old saying: Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it. Well, I think that holds true in my life. If I were granted this wish of peace and serenity by some magic genie and had just 15 minutes to sit down by a fire with nothing but a cup of coffee and my thoughts, I know exactly what my thoughts would be.
Are my 15 minutes up yet?
How much longer do I have to sit here?
Can I get up now? I have stuff to do.
If you find yourself in the same boat as I am in, my advice to you is to just do what I've decided to do: embrace the life you have, because it's the only one you're going to get and you may as well eek every ounce of enjoyment out of it that you can.
Otherwise, you're going to look back one day and regret that you allowed the fast pace of a day-to-day routine get the best of you, and you'll wish that you could go back in time and re-live those moments so you could experience them from a different perspective, but unfortunately you won't be able to do that, and all you'll have left are the memories of what could have been. Don't let that happen.
Don't live for what it could have been, live for what it is.
